So much within 1 month.
1 month has past since the last time I posted. Within this 1 month, lots have happened be it the good or the bad. I have started sch almost a month, learnt lots of new things, lots of stuff that i have never learn before. However school’s still fun, getting to know more friends and to learn more new things.
However for the past few days, things turned. Friends told me that a schoolmate of mine was involved in an accident. I don’t really know her, however I have seen her a couple of times. Then the day before yesterday she passed away. It was a great blow to both her family and friends, she was known to be the nicest girl. What do girls do best? Bitching, and this girl never bitch about others, always working hard for her goal. She tried so hard studying, asking and learning because partly she was from a “lousier” stream and climb to a better stream.
Just as things were going bad, a friend of mine was her classmate. Of course comforting is what I should do as a friend, but I can’t do anything much. In 2006, one of her best friend died of dengue fever, now another classmate. Both have something in common – known to be the nicest people. When she asked why? I couldn’t answer, not even lying my way through. Last time I told her that maybe its God who wanted him back with him, but this time? again? So do that means that nice people have to die early? That friend of mine couldn’t bring herself to that girl’s wake. She can’t take the fact that people who are nice from her class are leaving.
I then self-reflected, what if its me who is in her shoe, I don’t think I can take it. Especially the pain of losing your best friend. This friend is so nice that there is no reason that you can hate her. I can only ask my friend to see her classmate for the last time, if not, there’s no second time….lets hope there’s no third time of sending a friend of hers again.
The smoking sneeze ~~~~
Alright it’s 3.22am now in the morning of Monday, March 31. Yeah, and yesterday was Sunday, my cousin planned to celebrate his birthday with his relatives yesterday because his birthday is on Monday which makes everyone busy. So when I arrived at my aunty’s place, don’t know what had happened to me, I started sneezing non-stop. It was scary as I can sneeze up to a few times in a minute!!! Thats obnoxious isn’t it? I was wondering what happened, normally I will sneeze a couple of times in a minute but not a few times. I mean the times of me sneezing is scary.
When I sneeze, I don’t like to sneeze out loud like some people does. And I have the habit to enclose my nostril when I’m sneezing just incase any “excess fluid” comes out. So after that sneeze with my nostril shut, I need to blow some air out some how. And guess wat happened? Smoke came out from my mouth like as if I’m in a cold country that my breath condenses when it escapes from my mouth. However Singapore is freaking hot!!! No cold weather for us, and everytime right after I sneeze and I blow air out from my mouth. The very first breath will have smoke! Thats somehow fun to see, however its scary too. I don’t know whats wrong! Thats’ not normal, I mean normally I don’t have smoke coming out from my mouth when I sneeze.
And I really hope that this “smoke” is not contagious, because not long after my non-stop sneezing, I saw my sister and cousins started sneezing. I hope its coincidental, not from me ^^. But this is still a cool experience for me, I mean, who always have smoke coming out from his/her mouth when sneezes?
The plan was overplan.
Yesterday night I played online game till wee hours, then my friend called me. He’s always calling me and talk about stuffs that we could end up talking for hours. Then there’s another friend of mine, quiet a good one, however he is doing shit in his life. I have always wanted to help him, but I just don’t know how to start. Should I be straight forward with him? Or should I hint him, so that our friendship won’t turn sour or awkward? Or should I just ostracize him, I mean together with my friends so that he knows that something is wrong with him. So I talked to the friend who called me, we were discussing about how should we approach this problem. Then we came to our conclusion, lets be frank to one another! So we made plans for today, that we will go to his place’s coffeshop to talk things out. I can remember that I talk till 5.30+am that day and i went to sleep after it. The next day, which is today, my friend didn’t call me to make any arrangement for all of us to gather. All our efforts were wasted, I mean our talk. Maybe I was lazy and I should take the intiative to call and gather together.
However, I believe, SOON, my friends and I will come to talk to this problematic child. And I really hope it will works, because all of us know that he is an immature guy. He doesn’t know what he’s doing, he doesn’t care about his true friends. I don’t want to lose this buddy and I believe, all of my usual friends will love to see him being himself again but trying to be someone who he’s not. So my day today was planned, but overplan as I was staying home throughout the day. As usual, I was glued to my computer the whole day. Playing online game, downloading anime and looking at my pathetic blog.
Yeah definately you know I want something from you. It starts with the alphabet C ….and guess what? I don’t need your condolences, but instead I would want you to leave me some COMMENTS alright. Thats not a request, ITS AN ORDER! LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS DOWN BEFORE YOU DARES TO TAKE A STEP OUT OF MY BLOG.
The awakening from the lost.
The beautiful memories of him.In this year’s Febuary 6, my dog went missing. It was one of the hardest day to go by, however I was somehow not greatly affected for long…not anyone in my family. We were all sad, however we all have this glimpse of hope that we could find him, but unfortunately not. It seems that all this were destined, my dog was passed to my cousin to take care because my relatives and us are going overseas and since he was not going, we asked him to look after our dog. Our reason for his ran away was – none of us did say anything to our precious dog, Bear Bear, not saying that he will be staying in my cousin’s place while we were gone. My father just took him there while my sisters and I wasn’t home. So we didn’t have the chance to say anything to him.
We tried looking for Bear Bear, pasted notices nearby my cousin’s place, but all our efforts were furtile. We even went to flats to flats to ask if anyone have seen our dog. Day by day past, our hopes have been annihilated, and our lifes began to go back to normal. But the sudden sorrows still struck at us, be it in the day, night or even when we see someone with their dog. Pictures of him, memories of him will always be in our hearts. It seemed that maybe Bear Bear was too good for us, and he has to go. Guess we just have to let go, and we truly hope that the current owner will love him as much as we do.
Nevertheless, either Bear Bear or us have to get our lifes on, maybe he is even enjoying the new life that he got himself into. Sometimes life just go in the way that we didn’t want, but we have to constantly remind ourselves, if life just go as what we want, then we will be lifeless. Because we gets anything and everything we want, no one will have ambition, no one will have the feeling of lost. Guess its time for all of us who are drowned in our sorrow to wake up, to truly move on. Although my dog is gone, but i rather him to go then die, and even he is dead we have to move on. Anyone will have to move on from sorrow, sorrow is just something that tangle us. The more struggle we does, the tighter it gets, so why not just slowly free yourself. And in search of other happiness.
My very first post.
Alright, you must be wondering why are you looking at this pathetic post of mine. However I sees it as an opportunity to make more new friends from any part of the world. So lets get this started, just a little things to get this post started. I’m Arnold, 18, and I lives in Singapore ( I do hope you know where the hell it is, and if you don’t, go to the kitchen and get and take a knife to stab yourself real hard) . Ok, now I don’t know what else to say, let you do the talking now.
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